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06 February 2010 @ 03:58 am
To Fail a Son  
The dream has stopped.

Once I dream a dream it will repeat until it's happened or... who was I kidding. None of my dreams had ever been averted. They always came true.

I had hoped I would have had more time to try and stop it. Prove to myself that a vision of mine could be stopped. And more importantly, try and help my son. Make him realize what the true consequences would be.

Failure is weighing heavy in my heart right now. If maybe I had talked to Peter. Sat him down and really talked to him.

But ever since Arthur I have never been very good at those kinds of talks with my sons. And after everything with Nathan it was a wonder Peter talked to me at all. I had failed him then and I failed him now. Strange, thinking back at how close I used to be with Peter. But then isn't it normal for a mother and son to grow apart?

I don't think the reasons for the distance between Peter and I to be considered the norm, though.

I want to help him. He's always trying to help everyone else and it was about time someone saved him. Lord knows he could have used saving from even myself at times. The thing is, I don't know how. With the zombie apocalypse and the chaos in the house and the distance between us... I don't know how. It's not like I can call in a team and pay them to fix this problem. I'm not used to this feeling of not knowing. Of not being able to see the problem out to it's conclusion. Nathan's death had been the first time I had felt this. It makes me feel ill.

The worst part is that this problem is one of my own making. Peter was just a casualty like so many times before.
Current Mood: sadHas The Emo
Isaac Mendez: {I'm not so sure; uncertainty}future_games on February 6th, 2010 09:05 am (UTC)
[This is the most amount of concern he can muster. But it's concern!!!1one]

...You alright?
mama_dreamer: Smilemama_dreamer on February 6th, 2010 09:16 am (UTC)
[omg I got a reaction!!!! ]

*smiles sadly at Isaac*

Oh yes. Just one of those days, I suppose. You know how it is.
Isaac Mendez: {Listening; Quiet}future_games on February 6th, 2010 09:22 am (UTC)
*nods knowingly* I know how it is.

If I told you it would get better, I'd be lying, but I hope it all works out.

*and omg what's this he's about to say?*
...Peter isn't a bad person. He just...makes stupid decisions.
mama_dreamer: Smilemama_dreamer on February 6th, 2010 09:29 am (UTC)
Very kind words, kind and true.

*gives a small laugh at Isaac's comment about Peter*

And that, Isaac, is very true. I realize how hard that was for you to say out loud... I appreciate it. Very much.

Isaac Mendez: {Part listening-part thinking~}future_games on February 6th, 2010 09:38 am (UTC)
*maybe there's a hint of a smile there. maybe.* You have no idea. Just returning a bit of kindness.

And if doesn't get better? You can always disown him.
Hesam Malik Rahmani: Sighhesam_bb on February 6th, 2010 09:05 am (UTC)
I'm so sorry Mrs Petrelli
mama_dreamer: Mamamama_dreamer on February 6th, 2010 09:20 am (UTC)
That's sweet of you. But you know you have nothing to be sorry for.


Besides. I think it's just this house getting to me. It's so very stressful, is all.
Hesam Malik Rahmani: ...hesam_bb on February 6th, 2010 09:52 am (UTC)
I think it's getting to all of us Mrs Petrelli

Renérenethehaitian on February 6th, 2010 09:11 am (UTC)
I am sorry Mrs. Petrelli. I feel as though I have let you down.

mama_dreamer: Griefmama_dreamer on February 6th, 2010 09:18 am (UTC)
*gently touches Rene's cheek*

It's not your fault. You've always been here for me. I appreciate it.
René: Dazzling yourenethehaitian on February 6th, 2010 09:20 am (UTC)
(( D'aww! ))

I am here still, Mrs. Petrelli, if you need me.
lights_daggers on February 6th, 2010 09:19 am (UTC)
Mrs. Petrelli? What can I do to help love?
mama_dreamer: Staremama_dreamer on February 6th, 2010 09:23 am (UTC)
Oh Edgar. *smiles warmly*

Thank you for your concern. I think it's just one of those days. Must be the zombie fumes, I'm sure.

I'm touched by your concern. You're a good presence in this house.
lights_daggers on February 6th, 2010 09:26 am (UTC)
*bear hugs* Mrs. P if you need me I'm right around the corner.
power_snatch: peter ; glarepower_snatch on February 7th, 2010 05:44 am (UTC)
Mom, what are you..


You had a dream about..about THAT?


Yeah. Thanks for warning me.
mama_dreamer: LOST EVERYTHINGmama_dreamer on February 7th, 2010 09:27 am (UTC)